For months I’ve been lost, lost in the unknown I call my brain. Oh it could have been partly work, school, family, home, maybe a little bit of all of it, but I couldn’t seem to find a clearing. I wish I could say it has all of the sudden appeared and I know exactly what I am to do, but to be honest, I don’t.
Have you ever felt this way?
This past January, I took a trip to El Salvador with my MBA Program, it specifically dealt with social entrepreneurships, how to build a business plan that didn’t focus on me but on others, and I loved it. I joined up with this amazing young lady, a new friend, and we came up with a plan that met all of the goals and desires of my heart and hers….working with women and children…..providing for them, helping them, healing them, and bringing them hope. I honestly believed that God had opened my heart and began to pour His Wisdom and knowledge in. But within a few months time that door slammed flat in my face and I found myself baffled.
It’s in the confusion that darkness seeps in and only light can pierce it.
The worst part was, I found myself baffled at my favorite time of the year, Easter. The time when God has awakened my soul, the period of time in the past where He has grown me in indescribable ways, yet this Easter the Devil sought to destroy me. That’s when I did the only things I knew to do….I prayed. I prayed for hours, for days, and what He gave me in that time of prayer wasn’t an answer, but peace.
His answers are always Words, but sometimes they are just His arms wrapped around our heart filling us with His peace.
It was this same peace that I had felt when my son was on his way to Heaven, that same peace I felt as I worshipped in the waiting room, in the days that followed, in the funeral service, and the journey since. But even with the overwhelming peace I still sought the future….His Will, His Wisdom, and His Way. All I wanted to know was what now and why not, Lord. So, even in the peace, I continued to seek Him to dig Deeper in His Word, to ask for opened doors, and you know what I’ve found?
He has told me to WAIT.
Wait on His timing, don’t stop seeking Him, but allow Him to guide my steps and He will provide me with the open door. He will reveal to me the plans He has for me. He does that you know. He makes us wait, but He makes us wait so that He can grow us and prepare us for the ultimate plan He has for us. Abraham, Joseph, David, and Jesus, they all waited. They all waited for God’s plan for them to be laid before them. But they didn’t wait passively.
When we passively wait, time will pass with no new growth, but when we proactively wait a wealth of wisdom and knowledge will be poured in our life causing us to flourish.
Psalm 1:1-3 Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither— whatever they do prospers.
Will you wait with me?
What God has for us is so much bigger than what we can plan, what we can make up, what we can design, but maybe He just wants us to wait. Wait as the tree beside the water, wait as the light bursts through the sky, wait even when all we are wanting to know is the why. Wait because He loves patience, wait because he is preparing us through perseverance. Wait proactively, praying continuously, seeking Him through His Word and Wisdom, praising Him in all circumstances, trusting in His Promise and His Plan.
Wait for it…..Wait for Him…..He and His plan will be well worth the WAIT!